April 1, 2010

Oak and her beautiful birthmother

Origianlly written April 1, 2010, but never posted

I have had some very strong feelings that have come with preparing to adopt our second baby. I am a little taken back by them. I don't remember having this strong of feelings when we went through the adoption process the first time, pretty sure I didn't have them. Although we knew that we were supposed to move and it was supposed to be to Montana, we didn't really ever think that it had to do with finding Mac until we found him, and then we knew the "why" to it all.


This time around. Without fail, everytime I think about having another baby, I picture a baby girl. And to be honest, I don't want to be one sided about that thought. I am really fine with either, REALLY! It scares me to think that if I only think about having a girl that when we are actually chosen and it is a boy, that I may worry that this isn't "our baby". That is a really scary thought to me. So I try to imagine having a boy, and it just doesn't feel right. When I go shop the clearance racks my attention is usually drawn to the toddler boy and the baby girl stuff...without even thinking about it. I kindof did the same thing before Mac was born, I knew our first baby would be a boy, but it felt more like that is what I was hoping for more than anything and i would buy baby boy clothes all the time (I had a nice stock pile when we found out about Mac).


Another strong feeling I have had is wanting OUR baby, not just any baby. I feel a closeness to this baby of ours so much already, I feel like I am already creating a bond with him or HER. We aren't just waiting for a baby, we are waiting for OUR baby, the one that is part of our eternal family, and has been apart of the plan the whole time. It really makes me long for her and miss her. My arms truly ache for her! It is a feeling I am sure those that experience pregnancy feel towards the baby inside them. And all of this kindof make me wonder if this process will go by fast, that I am having these feelings because she is already on her way to us, she already exists in the loving care of her birthmothers body. It makes me very anxious to get approved, not frustrated that we arent' approved yet, but just very anxious to have our names and faces out there so that we are that much closer to finding her.


I am loving these feeling, although sometimes very confused by them, but loving them!

I really loved the words written here of a woman's testimony of adoption and her family!

Things Oak ~ 2 weeks old

2 weeks old

9 lbs 13 oz

21.5 inches long

(our ped never writes down the percentiles)

but she is up 13 oz from one week ago.

**she is a grunter and a squirmer (pretty sure most of it is due to tummy aches)

**she is a hot box, her body is always so warm

**pretty sure she has smiled for real a couple of times

**still has her belly button, it is hanging on for dear life for some reason

**she loves to be snuggled close

**she also loves to just lay flat on the floor, bed, or changing table and just look around

**she doesn't like her arms to be swaddled

**she has perfect little features

**we are in love with her!

My awesome sister had this onesie made for our beautiful baby girl! So perfect! And the bracelet is one we got her to match the necklaces that we got her birthparents. We got it from this awesome shop, the same place I got my "I <3 adoption" necklace from.

Family of FOUR!

It is sad that we just finally got a picture of all four of together yesterday. But I love it! This is a typical Mac face, and I look terrible because I had a gigantic headache and had been traveling all day for a funeral service for my aunt. But it is all four of us and that makes me so HAPPY!

Oak

Oak was one week old yesterday.

 I was finally able to get some sleepy newborn photos of her. It was so fun and she did so good.

And I even caught some of her sleepy smiles, which she does alot.

She is just so precious and beautiful!

Oh how we love her!

beautiful!

We are home!

Our beautiful baby girl!

Oak M

August 12, 2010

5:09pm

9 lbs  5oz

21.25 in

That's right, our baby girl came into the world yesterday.

Her beautiful birthmother is doing great.

Oak is chubby as can be and SO beautiful!

She is perfect and healthy!

We found our baby girl and we are in love!

This boy of mine!

This boy of mine...oh what joy he brings me! He melts my heart about a thousand times a day with his spunky personality, sassy attitude, the crazy smart things that come out of his mouth, his cute little looks, his big blue eyes and his bright red hair (and he is even starting to get freckles, squee!).

I can not live a day without this boy in my life. Honestly without him life would be so boring (and we get a little taste of this when he stays the night at grandma's house).

A few things about Mac...(since it has been way too long!)

*He loves to sing and hum the songs he knows. His favorite right now is Praise To The Man, knows it word for word and will hum the tune perfectly on his own as he is playing.

*He could totally be potty trained if he wanted to be, but depending on the day he usually doesn't want to be.

*He loves his new big boy bed and we switched his rooms to give him more room to play.

*he love bugs and animals, doesn't matter what kind.

*He loves to get wet, that includes getting wet in the face. He was spraying himself in the face with a squirt bottle the other day and totally giggling over it.

*He is so friendly and loves to make new friends. I heard him go up to a little boy at church and say "Hi, I'm Mac, what's your name?" Grabbed the kids hand and was starting to walk away with him.

*He eats oatmeal almost every single morning.

*He has turned into a really great helper. He loves to help cook and is really starting to grasp following directions when he is helping.

*He likes to climb into his car seat himself now.

*He is really in to coloring and drawing lately. He is even getting really good at staying in the lines.

This boy of mine is just growing up way too fast! Love every speck of him!

Holding the first tomato we picked out of our first garden!